Pure Passion

2002-06-04T13:36:00.000-07:00

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2002-05-22T17:25:00.000-07:00

Blah! My computer has been messing up majorly today and it's really beginning to piss me off! Plus my friend whom I was rp'ing with got off without any explanation and has not returned. - sigh Took some quizzes though! Cuz I was bored out of my mind . .

2002-05-22T17:24:00.000-07:00

- Falling down a neverending spiral Into the darkness that will soon surround me entirely I'm drowning in you. I don't know if I can fight anymore. You don't care, you never did so now I'm slowly slipping away to nothing, away to nothing before I'm completely gone, destroyed by you. You took the breath from me and laughed. Good-bye luv. Good-bye to you, good-bye to everything I thought I knew. - Because nothing I could do could ever make me worthy of loving someone like you. - My still heart beats for you. My still heart bleeds for you.

2002-05-22T17:23:00.002-07:00

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2002-05-22T17:23:00.001-07:00

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2002-05-22T17:23:00.000-07:00

2002-05-22T17:22:00.000-07:00

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2002-05-22T17:21:00.002-07:00

2002-05-22T17:21:00.001-07:00

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2002-05-22T17:21:00.000-07:00

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2002-05-22T17:20:00.002-07:00

2002-05-22T17:20:00.001-07:00

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2002-05-22T17:20:00.000-07:00

I am truly passionate.

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2002-05-22T17:19:00.000-07:00

2002-05-22T17:18:00.000-07:00

I am Cleo. Pet me!

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2002-05-06T19:33:00.000-07:00

I just want to send a shout out to my friends . . not necessarily listed in preference, although the first ones (and you know who you are) are the ones Im closest to, because you occur to me first! LoL. - hugs I don't know what I would do without you guys . . seriously. Thanks for putting up with me . .
Leigh (My pretty pretty Leigh . . ) , Tori- (My wild thing! ), Clare- (How's that baby coming along?), Charlee - (I miss ya!) - You my best friends ever and you are so fun! I can trust you and tell you anything. Kim! (The ultimate Kimness!), Kryshannnnnnnnneeeeeeee! (My only hope =D) You are so sweet deary I love you!
Rachel (You are my crazy momma!), Jenni (Yes mum, you are my ittle star . ), and Candice(My Candycane) - You gals are my gals! Yeah! Ya'll are a hoot to rp with and really trustworthy! I luv ya! Nathan- (My shower buddy! =D My king that i worship and watch in awe) - My bestest guy friend in the whole entire world . . don't let that change! Cory, Sandikins, Angie, and Dav. . . EMMA! My sweet sweet Emma!! And Meg, although I have not talked to you in a hundred gazillion years! KELLY! - (My Kell, Kell) You kick ass girl, you rp anything and you're supersweet. Underneath your clothes . . there's an endless tory . . and last but not least my newest buddy . . Mandy! - gives ass - My bodyguard. THERES MY LIST! If I forgot you, either I don't really like you much or I forgot. If I forgot, Im sorry!!!!!!!!!!!

2002-05-06T16:56:00.000-07:00

i didn't take my own life
you ended it for me

· ·· ··· ···· ·· ·· ···· ··· ·· ·
: does it ever hurt you :
: when they scream at you? :
: when they get into your thoughts :
: and read you from the inside? :
: and all of their glares :
: and awkward gazes only add up :
: to one thing- :
: you don't belong in the world; :
: you're better off dead :
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2002-05-06T16:54:00.000-07:00

Feels like i'm starting all over again...

So i'm a little left of center. I'm a little out of tune.
Some say i'm paranormal. So i just bend thier spoon.
Who wants to be ordinary in a crazy mixed up world?
i don't care what they're saying, as long as i'm your girl.

2002-05-06T16:01:00.000-07:00

A W a l k t o R e m e m b e r

love is always patient and kind.
It is never jealous.
Love is never boastful or conceited.
It is never rude or selfish.
It does not take offense and it is not resenful.
Love takes no pleasure in other people's sins but delights in the truth.
It is always ready to excuse,to trust,to hope,and to endure

2002-05-06T15:58:00.000-07:00

But I fear
I have nothing to give
I have so much to lose here in this lonely place
Tangled up in your embrace
There's nothing I'd like better than to
F
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2002-05-06T15:51:00.000-07:00

b>Nothing I can do can ever make me worthy of knowing and loving someone like you. The expression is everyone is equal. No man or woman is better than another, but yet sometimes I see that as not true. I happen to be alot less than many of my friends and companions, and although I strive to be like them, belong, and be equal, it is impossible to ever think of myself as more that what I truly am . . Nothing.

2002-05-02T16:27:00.000-07:00

I'm just sitting here listening to my Disney Cd. -- Hey, don't you laugh! It has really good music thank you very mich! -- Beauty and the Beast to be precise. Which reminds me of Buffy and Angel. They're from Buffy the Vampire Slayer and total soulmates. Can you say major shipper? That's me, right here. They can always make you cry when they are doing intense or just sweet lovey dovey scenes. Becoming part 2 and Graduation part 2 were two of the most gut wrenching episodes because one, he died, two, he left. I wish I could have a love like theirs . . . a passion that burns inside for all eternity, and that will never falter or die. They were so right for each other. It was like they were drawn together by some unseeable force . . destiny, serendipity, or fate. It just shows you, sometimes no matter what you think will happen, things change. A storm can come and shadow everything, or the sun can come out shining from above. But you always have to remember, you can't have a rainbow until after the rain. Love can either bring you down, or it can make you stronger. You chose it's course in your life. I use Buffy and Angel as a prime example of how two people should share a relationship . . . well aside from the whole vampire and slayer killing vampires by night thing. Well, I'm going to go work on a fanfic now. Arvoire.

2002-05-02T16:20:00.000-07:00

I really am a hopeless romantic. Sometimes I think that no one could ever possibly love me. I struggle with a serious case of depression, and sometimes I wonder if I have anxiesty disorder or that . . . anger management thing, you know, when you get super mad really fast. No way will I tell any of my irl friends, b/c they might tell my parents and I am not talking to some therapist. Although, it is soothing to talk to someone, I'd rather be the counselor than the counselee. (If that is even a word) That's something I'm considering doing also. One time, I was so upset, I tried cutting. I've tried starving myself, fasting or whatever, and it worked for a few days, but then I realized it had to stop. It began in 1995, when my grandmother died, I loved her so much. She was the greatest. Ever since then it's like I'm slipping downhill, everything seems to come crumbling apart and fall around me. One time, I even made a webpage entitled falling_hope . . . when hope falls. It talked about pain and suicide, and matters like that and such. Sometimes though all I need is just something very tiny to happen, and it changes my entire viewpoint on life. I know I can be unrealistic and demanding sometimes, but I try, I really do to do what is right, and to be friendly and kind. Oh gosh! I think I have a crush on my history teacher. I'm one of his class pets, and he is got a great sense of humor, not bad looking, and his occasional smile is adorable! He's super cool, you know, for a teacher and stuff. Too bad he's married! Oh well, he's too old for me anyways.

2002-05-02T16:13:00.000-07:00

Hey! What a day. I so hate my Spanish class. Not only am I making a C in there (which for me is awful), everyone picks on me. It's really bad, although they're usually joking. - sigh A couple of my good friends were about to do drugs, loricets exactly. Her excuse was . . . "I just felt like getting messed up." I kinda thought I would have seen it coming, but she got caught and in trouble, and now they're both finished with it all, realizing it was a bad idea. Thank goodness. I am so stressed. I have never had a boyfriend, and have only really loved one guy in all my life . . . for like 5 years. But not there's someone else now as well, my cousin's ex. I know, I know. We are like best friends and really tight, and she dumped her boyfriend after like 4 years or so, and in that time me and him became friends. He turned to me to talk to and he is so perfect. Sweet, funny, good looking, honest, respectable, and caring. It's so hard to find someone to please me these days that even gives me the time of day. I'll figure something out, hopefully. I have a beauty pageant coming up in like August and I'm pretty nervous. It's my second time around, but last year I had a blast and got a crown so, hey, what have I got to lose? Well, this as you can probably tell is my first post. I'm glad this works because my computer's a real pain. Grrr! I just read and saw some major bad stuff about my favorite tv show Buffy the Vampire Slayer, it's turning out to be a horrible, horrible mess and I don't like it that way! - rips out wad of hair. Ha ha, no I am not crazy. My other favorite shows, Roswell and Angel, Roswell has two more eps, and Angel hasn't been picked up . . yet. It better be, even though I still won't get to watch it. Lmfao. Do you ever wish you were someone else sometimes? You know, like an actress, or princess, or maybe just popular like a cheerleader or something? I sure do. I want to be all those things, but probably never going to happen. I'll either pursue an acting career (drama, because I'm really good at that) or be a persecutor . . or however you spell it. Lawyer. Send guilty murders to jail, no more getting by with killing someone. Anyhow, it's storming over here, so I better cut this post short incase the powers go out. I don't want to type it all over again! Hasta manana!